キミ＋僕＝LOVE.

fucking pissed off

Saturday, August 16, 2014 1:43 AM

U asked me whether i wan to go japan or not.
U ACTUALLY ASKED!!!
I said next time cus i dont want to go japan to just have fun. i wan to learn more of the language!
A month ago, i asked u whether i cant go japan for a month for a learning programme,
u said "give me all information and i'll will decide"

i gave U.
i waited FOR A REPLY,I WAS ANXIOUS ENOUGH TO MSG U
weeks and end of july u said i can let u go but are u going alone?

I EMPHASIS THAT I'M NOT GOING ALONE.
WHO THE HELL AM I STUPID ENOUGH TO VISIT A COUNTRY WHICH I DIDNT GO BEFORE AND ALWAYS DREAM TO GO.
I HAVE AN ADULT AND SHE WENT TO JAPAN BEOFRE.
SENSEI HAVE ASSURE ME THAT BOTH IKOMA AND AOYAMA SCHOOL WILL ALWAYS HAVE CONTACT ON STUDENT'S SAFETY.

AND U STILL SAY
"THINK THROUGH AND TELL ME AGAIN DO I WANT TO GO OR NOT"
IF I DON'T WAN TO GO,WHY I TELL U!!!!

U QUESTIONED MY ABILITY IN SPEAKING, LISTENING AND WRITING IN JAPANESE.
I'VE GONE THROUGH CLASS TO EARN A BASIC LEVEL AND I FEEL NOT ENOUGH
I'M AIMING FOR HIGH LEVEL CERT SO I FEEL ACCOMPLISH AND IS GOOD ON MY RESUME.

U ALWAYS QUESTIONED MY ABILITY IN DOING THINGS.
MY DEGREE, U ALWAYS ASK ME TO GET A JOB CONCERNING MY DEGREE.
WTF MAN! WITHOUT THE DUMB PAPER HOW CAN I GET A JOB WHICH LINKS ENOUGH WITH MY DEGREE.
I'M WORKING FUCKING HARD ON IT AND U MADE ME FEEL IM SPENDING UR FUCKING MONEY DOING NOTHING.
U THINK GETTING A JOB IS EASY IN SINGAPORE?
FUCK NO!!!

I'M TRYING MY WAYS TO IMPROVE MYSELF IN MY OWN LEVEL, IM NOT THE SAME WITH MONSTERS, THE 3 OF US WALK DIFFERENT ROUTES IN LIFE, DUN FUCKING PUT US IN SAME ROUTE.
IM NOT A ENGINEER TYPE, IM NOT A DESK-BOUND TYPE PERSON.
I LIKE TO MINGLE WITH PEOPLE AND KNOW ABOUT THEM.
IM NOT A 100% BUSINESS PERSON
SO FORGOODNESS SAKE,
DUN PUT ME IN THOSE LINES !!!!!!

U SAY I WILL FORGET WHATEVA I'VE LEARNT IF AFTER I CAME BACK FROM JAPAN,
R U CHALLENGING MY MEMORY LEVEL???
U THINK I'VE SPEND 6 YEARS SELF-STUDYING JAPANESE FOR NOTHING.
WHY I NEVER SPEND MONEY ON PROPER BASIC LESSON IN EARLY STAGE CUS IS UR FUCKING MONEY IM USING.
I DUN WAN TO BE SAID THAT IM WASTING MONEY ON A USELESS LANGUAGE LESSON.
EVERYTHING I'VE LEARNT UP TILL NOW IS DUE TO PASSION.

WHY I'VE STOPPED ICE-SKATING AND PROPER WUSHU CLASSES?
ICE-SKATING: I'VE STOPPED DUE TO PROMISED WITH MUM IF I'VE NOT DONE GOOD IN EXAM IN THE PASS.
WUSHU: TIME COMMITMENT. I'VE BEEN IN TOUGH STAGES DURING POLY LIFE. UPs AND DOWNs, EVEN THAT STUPID LECTURER LOOK DOWN ON ME, FUCKING MAN WITH THICK FACE HOLDING A PHD [U LOOK DOWN ON ME AND I DUN FUCKING CARE CUS UR PERSONAL CHARACTER SUCKS TTC]

EVEN THOUGH MY PASSION FOR THEM HASN'T DIMINISHED AT ALL!!! JAPANESE IS A BEAUTIFUL LANGUAGE WITH OTHER EUROPE LANGUAGES AND ETC [I WILL WAN TO LEARN GERMAN, ITALIAN FRENCH SOMEDAY ]

U MAY THINK MY ATTITUDE TO U TONIGHT IS FUCKING LOUSY,VICE VERSA, U'RE FUCKING ATTITUDE IS AS LOUSY AS IT IS.

MY FRIEND IS WAITING FOR ME, WE'VE BEEN DECIDING TO GO JAPAN TOGETHER SINCE YEARS AGO.
I WAS HAVING HIGH HOPE WHEN U SAY THAT U CAN LET ME GO
U WANT ME TO THINK THAT I HAVE DOUBTS ON MY OWN,

I CAN TELL U I DONT HAVE ANY DOUBTS,
I WANT TO GO TO THIS COURSE BECAUSE I'M ATTENDING HIGH LEVEL JAPANESE EXAMS THIS FUCKING DECEMBER.I CAN MAKE USE OF THIS CHANCE!
AND
WHY I NVR GO FOR PROPER CLASSES?
IF I WANT TO STUDY,
I CAN STUDY IN SINGAPORE JUS FOR LEARNING THE LANGUAGE.

MISTER,
LEARNING A LANGUAGE IN SG ISN'T ENOUGH AT ALL.
THE NATIVE TEACHERS ARE GOOD BUT THEY DUN REALLY CARE U UNDERSTAND THEIR TEACHING METHODS, I CAN UNDERSTAND THEM CUS MY FUCKING 6 YRS I'VE SPENT ON SELF-LEARNING.
IM NOW IN A STAGE I FEEL THAT SELF-LEARNING IS NOT ENOUGH,
STUDYING JAPANESE LANGUAGE IN SG IS NOT ENOUGH.
TO HAVE MORE KNOWLEDGE, VISITING JAPAN IS RELEVANT!!!

U ACCUSE ME OF NOT BEING ABLE TO SPEAK JAPANESE.
FOR GOODNESS SAKE, I CAN SPEAK, LISTEN AND WRITING FLUENTLY.
U DUN ANYHOW ACCUSE ME CUS U NVR SEE ME SPEAKING INFRONT OF U AT ALL.

I'VE NEVER BEING REAL MAD OR REAL PISSED OFF SINCE YOUNG,
BUT AT THIS TIME THIS MOMENT,
I AM FUCKING PISSED AND ANGRY
CUS U GAVE ME A FALSE HOPE,

OTHER PEOPLE GIVING ME A FALSE HOPE, IM OK CUS THEY ARE NOT 100% CONNECT WITH ME
BUT
BUT
BUT
YOU
ARE,
YOU
DAMN
ARE!!!!

IM DISAPPOINTED

I WILL NOT GIVE UP IN HOLDING THIS CHANCE!!!!