i know it has just been a week since i get to meet u again

but

i still

miss you.

just purely

miss you.

i know

that

u

have someone

in your

mind.

but i guess i

wont pursue

as i wont be

within your vision.

i miss u

like a stupid little girl.

i like u

like u are my first love

i love u

like u are my last.

but all this perhaps

u

will

not

know

forever.

SHINO!!!!  today was ******

Shino, im here to write again.

i feel better. although he is still in my mind but i nvr cry.
i was thinking to delete our photo in my phone but i nvr do it. i cant do it cus
it can be consider as he and my first photo tgt.
i will cherish it for as long as i cam remb.
i will not bother him much cus i dun wan to lose my last link with him (FB. cus i dunnoe his number change or nt. haiixx wanna ask but scared he gets wrong message lo.)
if really there's something that i will tell him if i can, it will be
 " I've regretted  i told you that i like you as a brother but instead i like you as a man."
Im sorry bcus i dun want any awkwardness cus we're in a team. im sorry that im too obvious.
He will have a spot in my heart.
I love you. I really did.

oh well... back to life.
boring as usual after afa ends.
hope EOY can be fun.
but not hanging out with my crazy trio really makes me lonely.
partially both of them are attached with their loves.
im the only single out.
my bern oso scold me" wth are u doing Eileen Tan ! they already attached and u are still here!!!"

well, this can't be help.
moon-god havent help me pull red thread yet what can i do?
look for guys? oh pls, i know my biggest weakness...my only limit.
im shaping myself up though.
just time is all i need but i oso run out of time. age doesnt slow down year by year.
oh well...let see how fate goes.

asides that.
im going to wushu international competition @MBS to see my friends competing.
long time so see my wushu peeps.
bet they train real hard. cant wait to see their performance.
seriously, i wan train back. but life now doesnt gives me the way to train it
hope it doesnt stop me from cosplaying,
i will not stop for now.

gonna carry on my assignment le. need hand in by fri & sat.
ciaosssu~

Seriously, why now???

why do i still have "dokidoki" feelings when i meet u after so long....2yrs bah...
i know i will still pass by his fb cus we are frens on fb... but still y?

for past 2 yrs, when i talk to my close fren abt my past crushes.
i wont event go red when i bring him into the topic.
i will jus feel "he's the cutest guy i've met so far" like seriously.

after seeing him again. is like "wow, how long i nvr feel like this"
even previously i bumped into sihao, i dun feel anything much more for him.
but he...errr...
i dun know wad to say here, should put as type here.
i couldnt sleep now.
should i say thanks to him?
i know i shouldnt harbour anymore strong feeling other than friendship feelings for him but it will go away... soon i guess...

truthfully,
thinking of  him reminds me the trip,
patting on his head [once only]
the night when he and others kachiao me and my clique.
when he and captain wanna scare us but i gotcha them back.
the room card snatching scenario. the first tym i got to hug a guy i really like that tym.
bloggie, i know i dun lie much but when his gf tagged along with the crew, i was indeed jealous, i was acting the same back in HK trip.but i tried control "alot". i guess im a worse virgo with a damn ego.
all this are coming back at this tym 4.43AM!! WTH...

i feel like crying but i shall force myself not to cry cus i swear i wont cry for a guy unless he is worth for me to cry for.

my friend ask me whether he has a gf, i dun even know, i dun wanna know...
for now im happy that he is doing well.
but now it makes me wonder that did he change his number or not when my fren brought up that topic.
my fren ask me to ask him. sadly, he dun really reply me. so wait for his mood bah.
but i dun wanna give wrong messages anymore.
i dun wanna hav anymore awkwardness with him.

for my own personality, i know i cant control my reaction towards r/s cus im like a open book to it.
i dun really know when will it be seal up but i will seal it up again...

cus even though i like him, im not worth for him.
when feelings are not up to par, one should not chase it cus this is not drama/anime world which surprise exist, this is reality world...

i should end this post. cus its getting longer and longer.
if i can or nt...
i will not let him know. cannot let him know.
cus he is my friend, my cutest crush ever.
suki yo, wa ga tomo yo T_T T_T T_T

frm now on, bloggie will be named as "shino"
jyaa, oyaasumi shino...

AFA'13 was a blast.
All my missions completed.
Friday was shopping spree..got reborn, SnK, digimon...hakuouki file...etc.
Sat cos as mukuro...i guess reborn trend died down since it ended...alot of vocaloid,SnK, free, kuroko etc.
sun cos as chrome, sat saw two chromes but sun i saw none. Haha. Was late for SnK event
In de mornin but glad that was able to see rest of events during noon tym.

Photos??? Yes. Took photo with reika sama and kaname sama and first tym meey onnies,she's real pretty.

Friends- saw bonding clan crew, starie as heicho sama(kawaii ,i shall work hard for my armin), ren as cloud(few yrs nvr meet, still so cute,err…now should be cool Haha)
I was with meow and suzu for whole 3 days. I hope bern wasnt bored ovr it.
Plus,ytd celebrate My laopo's pre bdae. Hope cosplay didnt shocked them too much.

Will upload photos tonight.
Ok. Funs over. Study tym!!! Another module finals comin tjus sat!!!
Shall train my body more. Haha.
Jyaa sore dake de : )