life has been normal for me...
eat, slp, work, fun.

but i've been told that i'm pushing myself to live everyday.
i'm pushing myself to stay happy and cheerful.

In fact, yes, i am not happy during times and i used ways to throw those feelings.
Recently, i feel im quite emotionless towards ppl but not to my friends cus i dun wan them worry.
plus lonely, yes, i am.worry not bothering them makes me refrain myself to chat with them.

took ace's personality test.
im a fox- cunning, smart
my future desire partner is a dog- loyal, caring
im dependent to others.
i can keep secrets.

well, i guess is 50-50 correct.

i cant say im smart but i have small lvl of intellegence.
 cunning. well. my mouth is cunning in someway that im too naive and straightforward in using words to speak.

frens' secrets are always keep within me if they are not to be revealed.
i depend on others to give me warmth and happiness.

i want a loyal and caring partner as i dun trust ppl easily unless they are very very close to me.

hope things can change to good stuffs.

but im faced with 2 problems .
one is career... stable career...i wan my stable career with my stars.
now is all part-times, part-times, part-times but i dun find a suitable one which interest me. hope i can find one.

de other.
i dun want lose another person close with my life.
i've lost it twice...i've somehow retrieve one but barely..
the other is that i lost my trust to her...which made me really sad till now even though i nvr spoke abt her since i lost her.
really, i dun wanna lost u my dear...
im willing to apologize to you.

hope things will change for the better...