Bro talked to me. Abt the monster, family
Love and concern.
Future.
This I all know.
I understand.

I dun like talk face to face cus I'll get to emotion and sometimes I'll start crying. It happen once back when I'm gg to get out of RP.

About the monster bro. I thanked for his chalet organizing but that's different for he's nosiness in my path of career life and my style of living.

I try to be strong and I am strong (physically) but not in de emotion world.
I think I have a psychological problem in me. Maybe due to my brought up bah.And the love an pain I got from the family as I dun have much family love but I know my family loves me but just that we are not with each other at times.

I am happy that they are still around. If they aren't around, I'll be devastated and be lifeless for months bah.

For my future, I wanted to take psychology seriously. I wanna help the ppl who need more help than me. I wanna defeat the ' monster ' in me. I have a ' monster ' which is my introvert-ness and the prob which I dun like to share.

I have alot of career which I wanna take but which to choose, I dun know. REALLY! whateva I choose, there will be negatives around. Yikes!

Now my head really in pain cus whenever I cry alot, it will start to get in pain. Mayb due to the hit I got it in de past.

Need to take quite some time to cool down.

I want to have a slow, fruitful life which I want decide on myself.

Now I'm watching tegomass con to cool down myself frm the tears. Massu, teshii, help me!