Lower your bloody expectations on me.

I am not that perfect you hope i am. I am still human, making mistakes along the way. 

plus,

Technically, I'm single. But my heart is taken by someone I can't call as my own...and farewell i guess, cooling down in process~~~

but really i dun wanna say farewell, cus u are dear to me. u are so normal but y am i so attracted to u even though u dun have any attracting points :P

back when within de 8mth plus of crush period, ppl ask me to stay strong and keep trying, until recently my fren ask me to giv up and move on, i wish to but no one to accompany me to move on yet. i wish u were de one who will br de accompaniment.

baby boy, although u may not be de one i'll be with for the rest of my life but for now, just this moment, i wish to be a "special someone" instead of being jus a "normal fren"

when i took photos with u, i felt so happy, cus is like a good 2mins being close with u without any space in between us, really, i do felt that way.

waiting is a true pain for me now cus im starting my twenties life period, i wanna try love, relationship, all terms of emotions rather than jus being in de silent world where im with my own favourites, i wanna share.

no matter what, i've declared to de peeps who i know that is gonna be a farewell, instead this special feelings i'll put in a chest inside my heart which only u can open it, someday i guess. Seems I'm not giving up on you Still XD

mayb de day will not come :x

wow...im writing too sentimental already :D

.i am a person who can concentrate on loving a guy for so long, thats y i love masuda takahisa (NEWS/tegomass) for de past 10yrs...still going strong. hehe.

when i saw de paper that i prayed at de temple, i was shocked. de good will become bad but is a push for me cus i will change de good to become better. for all circumstances.

mayb until u leave this island, we may not become a pair for a short period but still, i wish u can find ur happiness and do well in everything u do.

i wonder is this like a love letter or a good-bye letter??? hahahaa~

i'll end this post, with....

I

L

O

V

E

Y

O

U

and i still do till now~