well, shall i update on my life again.

gt fever up till 38.2degrees. hahah...thanks to the rain which keeps pouring from the previous afternoon.

one, "lazy" is hunting on me again. shall deal with it once and for all.
it's ruining my character.
someone save me for this? but no one bah...is up to me to change.

two, feb le...7mths more. hang on. for my certified papers and my future roads.
i have many interest in the courses but wad really interests me??? psychology & criminalogy
will buck up.

three, marche...work like hell...last 2 weeks were crazy week.
my feets are crying when reach home...massage them to feel better.
for diploma, will bear it on :))

four. love life??? hmm...nothing change. single as usual.
feelings for u...still same...dim...can another guy break me apart from u???
i really hate holding impossible torch on a guy.
it's killing me. thinking of u everytime, making me wanna scream but i couldn't.
is not the real me to scream for nothing.
can i like u actually??? but ur heart is with another person, i can't do anything.

five. changing my perspective...nii-chan told me this

"Well for a start you could genuinely start listening to others. Ask yourself why would they give you such a comment/advice. This way you can really see the people who truly care for you versus the ones that would run away when you have problems."

means i dun really like to listen to ppl at times cus i feel that ...i already know that thing which i dun like to be reminded cus is like a nuisance to me... 


six. trust...can i trust ppl...it seems scary...cus i think they'll just leave me or throw me into a hot pot letting me boiled up..i know i can trust 7ppl for now cus i know them long enough...they know my secrets (not all of it)...i even told one of my deepest secret. hahahaaa....cus i've been betrayed b3fore so i dun trust ppl must, i dun even dare to speak out first. haha.. dumb ,arent I?


seven...many ppl say im nice, cute, helpful..there are pros and cons.
pros, can gain trust from ppl 
cons, can get being used by ppl den kena unnecessary problems.
im not cute...im just fat haha


eight...trend...im getting onto it...recently really like harem pants. bought 2 of it for CNY.
recent still on j/k pop style clothes...too girly clothes is still not for me...im too boyish even though i have my hair extensions on...


will end for now.
will update on CNY which is this week :))