私は光です
本当の名前: EiLeEn Tan (イーリン・タン)
日本名「自分に作るて」: Sakurazaki Hikari, 櫻崎 光
誕生日: 14 Sept 1990


大好きと事・物
    私のダリーン、増田貴久
スポーツ[ 特には武芸とアイスースケチン ]
唱歌 と 踊り
姉妹 と 友達
彼方ーちゃん
NEWS、HEY SAY JUMP と 5566
音楽
アニメと漫画
ジャニス事務所 Photobucket



私の願う.
- SLIM DOWN "(>.<)"
- frenz'n'family'tgt'4eva
- excel 'in' everythg 'I' do
- be with my darlings 4eva
- NEWS/テゴマス CD & DVD
- NEW iouch
- getting N1
- NTT Docomo/softbank hp[white]
- able to do cosplays now and then


私の嫌い物.
only those who noe mii well noe wad i hate


さけぶ.






ありがとう.
designer' X|X base codes' X|X


Thursday, January 28, 2010 6:29 AM


looking more happier on de surface is only a coverage for others to let them know u're ok.

deep down inside, i'm absolutely not as much as happy as it seems...

"you" are not the only reason that makes this girl look sad ( now less sad already : P ).

I told ace & wanling that my chest feels tight on monday...it is not de first time happening le...sometimes it feels pain suddenly, especially when i woke up...

i wonder...will it happen to me? i should do more training le...
cus exercise can help sickness stay away from me :)

Super junior shows recent became my source of smiles&laughter.(not 4getting my baby massu<3 )

there are many other sources like wushu, sports and making music out from my piano, sms,etc...

have been recently attracted to lee sungmin from superjunior. his aegyo& cute smiles are what i try to obtain.

but bcus of who i am...my aegyo&smile will make some feel right & some dun like it...well i dun care much cus I'm jus being myself...

de damn cuss words (opps o.o)just coming out from my mouth. well. a way to relieve my anger bah. haha.

dun be so freak out when those cuss words come out *wink* : P

I say it cus im jus freaking mad at that moment only : P

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feeling : kinda down
colour of the day : grey (jus de like de pic above)

Super Junior: ~Believe~
This night is a blessing, the day that we met.
The moon is out in the sky and the stars are smiling.
I wish that your smile won't be erased as I pray
for these happy days to continue.

Even if I call you and I complain that's not what
I really meant to do. Did you already know and just act like you didn't?

It's possible to fight after a long time but
even if that happens I won't ever change.

Far into the future if you're ever worn and tired
think about the happy and beautiful memories
We plant faith in each other's garden and happiness blooms.




Sunday, January 24, 2010 1:42 AM

i got my super junior premium live in japan DVD

waited quite long.

so happy about it...will watch many times  <3

plus...

i cut my fringe le...no more side fringe for now...

someone ask, "how come go cut?"

i replied, " a new year a new look bah"

hmm...i think is attraction from minnie (sung min from super junior)...heehee.

cus saw from different photos...he sure tried alot of changes in hairstyle.hehe

but i wont be much like him else will spoil my hair...hehe...

but im interested in his pink hair....veru cute sia...


but will not try la...sure will kena mock by others. haha

but mayb i'll highlight a little bit, heehees.(in future :P)




Thursday, January 21, 2010 4:24 AM




私達が一緒にができないでも彼女と一緒に幸せが。

悲しいですけど,しょがないかな~

この気持ちは今までまだ変わらない



다른 사람 필요 없어 난 그냥 너라고
다시 한번 물어봐도 난 그냥 너라고
이미 너는 다른 사랑 있겠지만
어쩔 수가 없어 다시 돌이 킬 순 없어

내 눈빛이 들어오던 순간에
가슴 깊이 못을 박던 순간에
미련없이 바로 너를 선택했어
그래 난 너라고 oh! 난

把你烙在心底 I DO
时时刻刻爱你 I DO
就算狂风暴雨 不让你受委屈 I Do
爱你的心不离 MY LOVE

私の好きの歌詞
きみが知りたいな。。。
私の気持ち、分かる?
ノープレーシャ、OK?




Wednesday, January 20, 2010 3:46 AM


 我最爱的大人,
为什么会发生在你的身上?
为什么呢?
我不想要这样!!!
如果你发生了什么事情,你要我怎么办?
我要如何继续生活?
我的精神支柱会倒的,会崩。。。
你知道我不是一个坚强的人,我会一直哭的。
你一定要好起来,知道吗?
不要一直闷住,一个人受苦。
我是你的孩子,当孩子的就要替你分担的,不是吗?
我只要你答应我,不要消失好吗?
因为我不再想要一个疼我,爱我的人不在我身边。
你一定要好起来,知道吗?
 _________________________________________________________________________________
Was hoping not ot bump into you whether in school or not.
what a coincidence.
my heartbeat increased when i saw u
regretted of waving to u, should have just smiled and look away
but somehow, i felt happy to see you today.




Tuesday, January 19, 2010 1:16 PM



old injuries haven't recover, new injury arrives...
haiish...friday another therapy, sure will kenna scolded but the therapist lor.
training today was great. i can do 摆莲脚 again le...although the pain is still there...
need wear another knee guard on next training onwards...haiz (now wearing left ankle, right calve guard and tie a bandage @ de joint part of right hip & right thigh =X )
I will try my best in recovering, regaining to my standard and improving it.

i know i shouldn't carry on with this feeling but dunno why is still lingerin on.
well...let the time flow and see how...
but till, now i still like you.
BUT...
I WISH U HAPPINESS
forever friends, K?

그대를 사랑한다는 말 평생 매일 해주고 싶어
널 사랑하고 아끼며 살아가고 싶어
闻いて欲しいことがあるんだ
そうさ 真面目な话さ

 너를 지켜줄게







decided trips, dreams, my msg to u...
Saturday, January 16, 2010 3:37 AM


15 jan 2010

Looking for the upcoming "devil" training in Beijing during march.
My most hopeful thing is that my hamstring injury will  recover by before it.
need save more money for tis trips le...heehees.



Today, I thought I will be training dui lian with wan ling dar but coach chai wanted us to practice for the upcoming performance on 12feb & 28feb. although was a little sad but it was fun...during today's training, honestly , i was nearly fainting in de middle of the practice while coach Chai was making the new performance routine.thanks to dar's encouragement

I told myself that i cannot fall down this easily....
I was happy that I can do dao performance on stage...next time, solo dao/ cudgel  performance.
haha. hope so...


after dinner , on MRT... heard KJ that he want to coach under coach Xue's wushu cafe....i also want to coach too...other than earning money for the trip, i can also gain more experience too& is an advantage for the course im taking, heehees...hope this can come true but shy to ask coach la...cus i still not strong enough to coach :P

ちょうど先で考えていた…
何でキミが好きですか?
正直、最初はメチャビックリした。寝起きの時、最初来たの事はなぜだキミが私の夢に現れるか?
初めてジャナイ、もう第三回だ。。。
時々、私はきみが秘密になぜ見るか知らない, それから刺激する感じる。見るの時、あんしんとうれしいの感じが有る。
でも、今もういいだ。君が好きですけど、君の感情の世界ずっと素晴しいね~
 ずっと幸せね~だいすきよ、友達。




Monday, January 11, 2010 3:42 AM

9th Jan 2010

 woke up 7.30am instead of 8am [the time i set on my alarm clock]
den called BL. after 8am, cant contact him. reason : hp no batt (WTF)
went to sch alone for open house.
saw Patrick and others.became caretaker&video girl. heehees
can say first time see them so enthu...collecting the badges of each schs...
i was like lol. we're so late for the steamboat already.

On Mrt, there was never ending of chats in the groups.
from woodlands till bugis.
met up with wendi & others.
after everyone's arrival, we met up with coach and head to the eating place.
we started our steamboat buffet after settling down.
we bought a cake for coach too.
before blowing de candles, a cute boy was bullying daniel[got bullied de most] and ronald.
the bully session was amusing, everyone was laughing lor.
after coach chai blowed de candles, everyone said something to coach.
wanling and I had to go off first. she gt dating. i go ko-chan's house.
we claimed our medals frm bing mui & run off.

-reached ko-chan's house-
everyone was there...long time nvr see a-chan.m-chan& rara-chan.
miss them alot.
mochi was happy to see me.yay
we watched "Mr Brain" ep1- ep3. kimura takuya is de main lead and he's great in de show.
we were laughing and eating durian while we watching.
took photos. had fun. watched dvd. never feeling bored with them.
when i carry mochi, she was like so comfortable in my arms.
we went home around 11pm.
took cab home cus no train and no bus.

had a tired day but it was a happy day.




Thursday, January 7, 2010 4:37 AM


school starts = boring.
the non-boring times is only during wushu, singing & dancing bah.
recently,  i've been thinking alot.
but all this result to only one point.

star golden bell with super junior on it as guests. is really damn funny.
the wonderboys performances and other videos about SJ is totally funny and interesting.
wanna purchase super show DVD sia. and will wait for super show 2 DVD too in future.
im now learning their dance too. it is so fun learning them.

gonna buck up for my piano skills sia. long time nvr touch it le.
have been thinking of buying a new guitar. I really want to learn it. heehees,
There are so many things that i wanna learn sia... guitar,korean language, editing music and make clips.
but my free time is really little cus most of it have been spent on figure skating and wushu.

speaking of  figure skating, 2nights ago,elizabeth told me about the upcoming skate asia 2010 in shanghai during first 2 weeks of august. It is so tempting sia. before wushu came into my life, figure skating was my only passion and hoping to step on other countries' ice rink[for competition] was my dream but it didn't happen due to some things came up.
then wushu came into my life. wushu helped me to be able to stand on another stage and do my stuffs.
hehe ^.^
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things that i decided to do in 2010 :
1) learn korean
2) learn guitar
3) improve my wushu and figure skating skills
4) learn music & video editing/making
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that's for now<3




Friday, January 1, 2010 1:23 AM


HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE.
HAVE A SMOOTH YEAR AHEAD 


HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEE SUNG MIN (Super Junior)&


Domoto Koichi (Kinki Kids), 사랑해요♥ ♥ ♥




당신을 성가시게 하기를 위해 유감스러운, 나는 당신을 그때까지는 내버려둘 것이다